I’m seen as the ‘mum’ of my friendship group, when we all stay at someone’s house more often than not i wake up early to make everyone breakfast and tea then whilst they are eating i sneak back into bed.
I’m really bad with money, like i can never just go one a massive shopping spree or do a massive save cos i can’t buy anything without feeling this massive guilt and regret and then when i don’t buy anything i regret that aswell so i ease my regret by buying useless shit that i’m never gonna use/wear. tough life TBH
I have a very short temper, i tend to hold myself back a lot when i’m in a bad mood because otherwise i lash out and i hate people seeing that side of me lmfao it’s really awful. I got in a fight at school about 3 years ago because this girl took my phone and when i asked for it back she spat in my face so i punched her. LOOOL we both got internally excluded.
There is something i hate more than anything, and that is when someone purposely goes out of their way to make you look like a fool/embarrass you. I get embarrassed easily, so when someone actually tells a story about me to someone else or a crowd of people it really fucking pisses me off and i end up getting hurt. It’s fucking nasty to make someone else’s personal experiences/embarrassing moments into a story so people can laugh with you about it cos it makes the person feel like shit.
I have a phobia of fish, most people would say it is really irrational, but i can’t stand them omg. Small fish are allright, tropical ones i can live with but when i comes to actual fish or whales or fucking sharks, octopus, jelly fucking fish, i shit myself.
The fear came partly from the fact i remember at the age of 10 i jumped off my dads boat into the sea and landed next to a jellyfish the size of fucking car wheel. And then the other half is when i was taken to Sea Life which is a huge aquarium and you walk through a round tunnel so you are surrounded by water and i remember a shark (apparently it was harmless) swam overheard and i started breaking out in a cold sweat and shaking, i thought i was gonna faint omg
I have the grace of a drunk elephant with three feet, even today whilst running for the bus i ran head first into a fucking lamp post, then when i got on the bus i tripped over my own foot going up the stairs. And whilst i was just in the supermarket i was whizzing around with the trolley as you do, and i slipped in a fucking pea or some shit green squished vegetable on the floor and knocked my face on the bar of the trolley -_-
I love people with a sense of humour, and if i meet someone who has a dry personality; we will not be friends. People who try to be funny don’t count, you have to be interesting, fun to talk to and make me laugh ok.
I have the worst first impression ever, people have even admitted when they first acknowledged me they though i was a stuck up rich kid l m a o, not just a few people either. Like friends will admit randomly they use to hate me before they got to know me and i would be like lol i thought you liked me back then AWK. I think that’s why i get so surprised when people on here are like ‘you seem so lovely’ and im like YOU ARE LYING, I CAN TELL. NO ONE WHO DOES’T KNOW ME LIKES ME. EVER.
I am not organised in the slightest, i keep saying to myself ‘i need to sort my life out’ but i don’t even know how to. I hate planning, everything i do i do it last minute. And when i say last minute, i mean the actual last minute. I tend to just take things as they come and just kind of go along with it tbh, i forget really important things yet remember the tiniest insignificant detail of something that happened about 10 years ago and will have no use to myself or anybody else.
The password to my phone is ‘taemin’, cos i thought ‘onew’ would be way too obvious LOOOOL i am a very simple person.
My only sporty talents are darts and swimming/high diving, darts is the most useless sport ever but somehow i’m good at it (?). Swimming and high diving i did when i was younger but i’m probably really rusty cos i haven’t done anything in about 3 years, lol.
I genuinely feel really lost without my laptop/internet, yesterday i lent it to my brother because he wanted to watch a movie on it, those 2 hours i was just like rolling around in bed and walking around the house whilst ripping my hair out cos i was so bored.
It’s getting bad.
I hate PDA, it makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and i get so embarrassed for the people involved ugh.
I don’t have many prized possessions, when someone asks me ‘what would you take if your house was on fire?’ the only thing that comes to mind is my laptop, my phone, purse and my kpop albums LMAO. The only other thing is my necklace my grandmother gave me, but since i never take it off i wouldn’t have to worry about that.
My friends and family think i have OCD, not in the way that i like to have everything clean but small things, like when i am food shopping, everything on the conveyor belt has to be neat and organised, fruit in one section and stuff like that. I get so annoyed when my mum just plonks things on top. Also, say when i’m collecting sheets in class and some people fold them and some don’t, if the majority are folded i have to fold the rest otherwise it will bug me for the whole day -_- I actually don’t see that as ocd but whatever.